Then grandpa dies.
And ever since then I dont know what to do with myself. It changes everything. I am surprised to notice that I am working through deep doo-doo. Again. Everything is just sliding away from underneath and around me.
'Try and look at this obstacle as a lesson' - I hear the inner voice say. Yes, yes.
'There no holding on to anything anymore. This is what you wanted' - I remind myself.
So I let go.
I look at what I have been creating these last few years and on the one hand I have never felt more connected with my authentic self. I have found my calling, my heart connection. My truth. All the 'not worrying about it' really worked. On the other hand Im wondering where the 'big pay off' is you know? 'The breakthrough' ? That miracle that completely transforms my entire life in a split second. Where we travel the world. Where I sit in the evenings and watch my vineyard exhale the heavy heat of the day, Where my children play amongst the wild flowers as I write another best selling book and my husband toils away in his wilderness, moving with the earth. Where everything I have I share.
Then I get it. This stuff is the breakthrough. And this is breakthrough stuff. The work is being done. The magic is happening. Trust in the process. The cycles. Everything unfolds in its own perfect time.
Frustrations will pass. Feelings will change. You will grow.
Deep breaths guys. This stuff is the breakthrough. - Tweet Me